Monday, June 25, 2007, 11:47 AM [
General]
Okay so it has been awhile since I blogged about much of anything so here it goes.
Lately I have been doing a lot of self reflecting. The onset of this was brought about because I was getting out of a relationship. It sucked and it was hard for a while, but things are okay now. And I will say that this was my first relationship since I have been on my new spiritual path. That being said, it was hands down the easiest and most mature breakup I have ever had. Spiritually and emotionally we had just grown apart. We just wanted different things.
Now as anyone who has had a "broken heart" knows, and I know I can speak for most women for sure on this, you do a few things to help yourself get over it. 1. You tone up...everyone needs a "breakup body." 2. You reflect on the past (insert length of relationship here) and you figure out where you went wrong and where they went wrong. 3. You eat a lot of chocolate and cry (which doesn't aid in break up body BTW). 4. You get over it
Let's talk about getting over it. It wasn't easy. And I was becoming the most cynical person on the face of the planet. I dove into my job head on and took on some more responsibilities so mentally I was preoccupied. And I of course, hated all things masculine. I even went to a wedding and at the reception I looked to my friend, Moose who was saying how nice it was to see a young couple have a fairy tale wedding with a happy ending...to which I replied "Happy endings are just stories that are not finished yet." In short, I was becoming a cynical workaholic. And I needed to get back to Square 1 with Kate.
So That's what I did.
I spent a lot of nights at the beach looking at the moon and asking for the courage to find a new partner sometime before I become the scary cat lady on the block that no one will come trick-or-treating to. And then I stopped looking. And that's when it happened. And the funny thing is, he was there all along, I just wasn't listening to the signs the Goddess was sending me.
Stay tuned.
Bright Blessings, Kate! I was just wandering around, and ran across your page, so I thought I'd say hello. Drop by my blog sometime...it's always open!
TaliesinBlessed be,
03:16 PM CST